So I went swimming today, about 55 minutes. I do about half of it freestyle and half of it breaststroke. It felt good to actually swim laps after a week of eating junk on our vacation and after a week of not doing it because of my time of the month. I actually really enjoy swimming. It is nice and my joints and I love feeling the cool water on me and plus my lovely husband bought me a radio that can go in the water so it makes it even better now. I had a few pistachios some pepper one before I left and I had my first Medifast meal honey mustard sticks so so far so good we'll see how the rest of today goes

I almost derailed tonight. We had dinner with my husband's family. Mashed potatoes, corn, peas, rolls, fruit, and BBQ pork. I was pretty happy with myself though, because I ate just a half roll (instead of 2), I had a lot of peas one scoop of corn, and several cubes of watermelon, musk Mellon, and pineapple. I had two small pieces of meat. I also skipped the dessert. I find it difficult to turn down other people's food when they offer. I had a hard time telling my father-in-law that I wasn't going to have the dessert. I shouldn't feel bad, but for some reason I do. My friend once told me that she didn't think it was fair that tall people get to eat more food, when us shorties like food just as much as they do, and I am in agreement wig her. Food is so yummo!

So I belong to the church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and on the first Sunday of every month we do a fast, which is when you go without food and drink for two meals...it can be more, and then give the money that you would have spent on the meals to the church in fast offerings and then the church uses it in lots of different ways to help those in need. I bring this up because fasting has always been difficult for me. Not so much the food part, but giving up the water. I love love love water. In my last post I mentioned doing a lot of different things and one was meeting with a nutritionalist. He recommended drinking an ounce of water for every pound of fat you had. Which back then was about 96 oz. I am sure I need to drink a lot more than that now. I don't have any fancy equipment to check my fat level. If I did I know I would need to drink more water. So my goal for this week is to drink 120 ounces of water, and to not eat past 7:30pm.

Simply skinny? There is nothing simple about it...for me! I came back from vacation today and stepped onto the scale. I was shocked. 222. Yep there it was; the biggest number I have ever seen for me on the scale. I told myself this evening, enough is enough. I have to admit I haven't tried every diet or fad around, I feel strongly that I should have enough will power to just eat healthy, but it is obvious I am lacking! I have done cleanses, calorie counting, medifast (which I actually lost 37lbs. over a period of 6 months which now a year later I have gained back...Plus some). So I decided tonight, that I would once again go back on my medifast diet (I still have food left), until it is gone, and thought I would have more will power if I actually document my struggles and desires for food. So here goes. I will post a picture so I can compare in a few months. Hopefully being accountable to whomever may read this may give me a little more strength. Ok, well I am on my phone and since I am a little technologically impaired, I will have to wait till I get to my computer. Until then, use your imagination. I will tell you that at 5'2 and 222 lbs: It isn't pretty!